Do you ever feel called to a specific mission? The calling, stirring from deep within your gut, gnawing a hole in you, and you can no longer bare the pain any longer?
As the Maya Angelo quote goes “There’s no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” Well, that’s a snapshot of my insides for the past few years, pure agony.
The agony being, that I had this very exciting idea, but too afraid to jump in head first and actually bring it into fruition… ’til now.
Something has been calling me, a message? A mission? The universe?
The calling has become so loud that I have no choice but to listen and follow instructions. My instructions have been to first begin to heal myself, which I have been vigilantly working on since my 30th birthday when I decided to face my pain and check myself into a treatment center for anxiety and depression.
I finally quit running. It was the bravest thing I’ve ever done. Since then, I’ve had many ups and downs and have searched high and low for ways to become more of a whole person. I wanted so desperately to be at peace and be able to enjoy life and all the LovE that surrounded me.
Sometime in early 2015 I stumbled upon Cameron Diaz’s “The Body Book” on Instagram. There I saw a post about an energy healer and breath work teacher, Ashley Neese. Her type of work was something I had never experienced before and intrigued me very much. My intuition told me to contact her, but my ego suggested otherwise.
I thought my family and friends would think I was crazy to want to contact someone for energy work that I just stumbled upon on Instagram. I now realize that’s how the universe works. We must take it’s promptings and run with them, even if they make no sense at the time or scare us half to death.
After about 5 months of Ashley popping up in my Instagram feed almost on the daily, I finally reached out. I had no idea what I was getting myself into, but what was one session with her going to hurt? One session has turned into a year and a half of her guiding me through releasing old blocks, ancient pain and lots of soul searching. She has provided me with so many tools and has taught me how to become my own healer. She was literally heaven sent.
On this never ending healing journey, I have been able to eradicate a lot of the fear that has caused me so much anxiety and self doubt. I have been able to begin to remember who I am, who we all are. Through books of wisdom, teachers who’ve held space for me to fall apart and begin again, breath work, Kundalini yoga, mindfulness and learning to become my own healer, I have shifted my life in ways I never believed possible.
I am in the process of rewiring my brain, connecting my head and my heart so that they work as a team and not against one another.
I am far from healed, but I am farther away than ever from the dark and possessive bind of fear. I have found LovE and LovE I want to share.
I’ve known spreading the message of LovE has been one of my missions ever since I couldn’t stop writing about it on my latest album “Remnants,” but my mission has become even clearer of recent. I’ve been handed many pieces of a puzzle over the past couple of years. I’ve understood them each separately, but have never quite understood what bigger picture they were to create together. One thing I’ve been sure of though is that the excitement and joy, like electric currents running through my veins every time a piece came to me, meant I was on to something. I was being given the next big pieces of my soul mission.
The title of this blog came to me 4 years ago laying on a dock, by the lake in Big Bear. The topic of having children came up and Eddie and I began talking names. EverLe is a name we both loved if we had a little girl. Now I see it was another type of “baby” named EverLe that needed to be born, but it wasn’t until 2 years later while trying to create a title for this project, wandering the streets of London with my dear friend did something whisper in my ear and remind me of the name. It just clicked and I was as sure as the the day is long that my mission, the brand, the blog, the everything was to be called “EverLe.”
I’m a seeker, constantly eager to learn how to be a more effective, bright, fully embodied spirit. I’m on my own personal journey of evolution and I hope by sharing my experiences, knowledge, bits of wisdom, my sometimes messy and painful mistakes, my triumphs, my joy, my heart and soul, someone out there is inspired to embark on or expand their own evolutionary journey.
EverLe’s mission is to help awaken and heal the human spirit, to shine the light of LovE in the darkest of places, to help people remember the creative, magnificent, healers we all are and to be a conduit to connect soulful individuals to one another.
EverLe hopes to provide a space free of shame, guilt and judgement but rather full of authenticity, grace, joy and LovE. So, let’s DEVOTE ourselves to experiencing as much JOY as possible, connecting with our VILLAGE of like hearted friends, shining a SPOTLIGHT on our greatness and indulging our every whim of WANDERLUST while in this vibrant SOUL CASE! Welcome to the world, the “Soul of EverLe.”